Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Trouble With Remaining in the Present

Now I'm starting to have some issues with my daughter... I think it started with me being gone a lot visiting my mom, but even now that I am home more, mentally I am often far away. I try not to be, but sometimes I can't help it. I know that I am not being patient enough with her, and I find we're having many days where there are tears and raised voices and frustration. I feel at a loss as to how to deal with it... my dad and I feel confident that we're starting to fall in to a sort of schedule, with mom's therapy and radiation and all that... and that soon we'll have a sort of 'new normal'. Hopefully, some of this stress will subside when the unknowns are fewer.

I did talk with both of them about what's going on, and asked them if they had any questions about it. Neither of them had any desire to discuss it much, so I left it at that. Keelan said he thought grandma was 'coughing sick', so I explained to him simply that she was not and that she had something in her head that's not supposed to be there. He said, 'Oh, that's why she's forgetting things'. I said yes. Coralie too, only had one simple question (although, for the life of me, I can't remember what it was) and that was all. I told them both that if they ever had any questions at all about what was going on, they could ask me and I would try to answer them. And that was it.

On an unrelated note, I am excited that I got my seed order off in the mail the other day. Next month, there will be things that need to be planted. Hooray!

2 comments:

growingcurious said...

Do you think Dr. L might be helpful with a homeopathic remedy or two for all of you?

growingcurious said...

Also, not to tell you what to do, but you might research Holy Basil/Tulsi and Wood Betony as adaptogens that help people stay grounded during difficult times.

Dr. L might suggest Withania/Ashwaganda, too.

Your reactions are normal, though, and don't need to be stopped. But I know you'd like them eased so that the rest of your life is easier.

You have TSD. :)

signed,

my PTSD is much better